just another day

So, I've had one of those weeks where I just can't wait to finish school and not be so poor anymore. UPS apparently lost all the paychecks for our store so a bunch of us never got paid. I had to depend on my boyfriend to pay my car insurance so my sister and I don't lose our cars (I legally own and insure both). I was supposed to be paid Friday, our checks were supposed to be in Thursday. Here it is late Monday night and I still haven't been paid. Does this show how crappy it can be being a student and raising a child? No, not totally, there are rewards but this is one small example of how tough it can be. Have I given up hope? Definitely not. I did cry a bit because obviously it was really stressful. I hate asking my boyfriend for help unless I absolutely need it. So now what happens? I wait for my paycheck which I pretty much need to sign the entire thing over to him and figure out some kind of miracle to pay the rest of my bills. Joy! Yeah, just another day.

End of Semester

Alright, the spring semester is done. I'm so happy to put this one behind me. I'm not sure why but it was so tough, I was spending one to two nights a week not sleeping just to get my homework done in time. It was crazy. I'm still recovering from this last one. I think it was such a heavy work load. Anyway, now I get a two week break before starting summer classes. Luckily, the first session is just one class. I'm so excited for it too! It's my assessment and planning class. I've been looking forward to this one, I know it'll help me a lot to advance my career. I'm working on getting my observation hours done before class starts. I already contacted the head of the English department at the Barnstable High School where I did observation hours previously.
On a side note, since this is my second post and I did promise to post my story, here's a little more background on me. I'm 25 years old, I have a 6 year old son. I was 19 when he was born and had just finished my first semester of college. Being pregnant did not make that semester easy, I was one of those oh so lucky women to suffer from morning, afternoon and night sickness, so I missed a lot of class time. I took one semester off and then went back head on. That following December, after completing my second semester of school, things went south for my son's dad and me. There was just too many problems and issues between us that by the time either of us could admit there was something wrong, it was unrepairable and we made the hard decision to split up. Since then, I was engaged to two guys (can't even call them men) who were not good for me or my son, both verbally abusive in their own rights (one was very controlling and one always seemed to have a problem with my son and me). I went through several homes, starting in a hotel room when my son was born to where I live now with my current boyfriend. I graduated Massasoit Community College last year (finished classes the year before) and just finished my second year at Bridgewater State University. I had a rough start to things, but I can honestly and truly say that as rough as things are, I am happy. My boyfriend is amazing, he does anything and everything he can to take care of William (my son) and me. He never makes me feel guilty for it, it's never a problem. My son has even called him daddy on several occassions. (Oh, and speaking of daddys, my son's father is still in his life, we found we get a long better as friends.) For the first time in my life, I don't consider myself homeless nor do I consider myself a single mother. I'm one year away from graduating and I take the second part of the MTEL this Saturday. If I pass, I'm a licensed teacher, just can't actually start full time till I graduate. I don't hope to change the world with my story but I do hope to help at least one person who is in a similiar position to me to realize they are not alone and that with enough determination, it can be done. No one can take your dreams from you and they can only be achieved if you work for them.

Welcome!

So, obviously this is my new blogspot. I decided I wanted to start a blog after tiring from hearing people telling me day in and day out how impressive it is that I'm going to school, working and raising an amazing little boy. Is it really that amazing what I do? It sure isn't easy, but amazing? Impressive? I'm not so sure, but I do realize there are people who right now are where I started. I want those people to know that they don't need to be a statistic of what lower class is like, of what being poor is like, that there are resources and that it is possible to change where you are right now and go someplace where you always wanted to be. Life happens and we all make a decision somewhere that brought us here. Now I feel is the time to make another decision and break out of the mold and show the world what you are made of. I'm starting this towards the end of my college career, but soon into the future, I will share stories about where I started, the struggles I went through. My struggles aren't typical; in fact, I'm not sure I get to being where the worst you can get is. I do know for a fact that I sunk to my lowest low and I'm climbing a long ladder to be free of it. So take my story as you will, inspirational, amazing or a joke, and see where it can take you and what it can teach you. I will leave you readers on a note of inspiration that was taught to me: never believe you deserve less than the best. Believe in yourself and you can achieve anything. Cliché, I know, but true.